Wednesday, October 20, 2010

6 weeks

No, this title is not because it's been 6 weeks since my last post.

Because it hasn't been 6 weeks since my last post.

Now, granted, I realize it's been almost 2 weeks, and for that I apologize, but we've had a lot going on and I will share all of that with you.

No, the title 6 weeks pertains to how many weeks gestation our lil' peanut is.

You read that right...we're pregnant again :)

We found out on Tuesday, September 28th.  I was about to get in the bathtub with Samantha when she looks at me and says "Mommy, you have a baby in your tummy.  I'm going to be a big sister."  Is that NOT the cutest thing ever?  Well, turns out there was some truth to that statement!  Even though I had not missed my period yet and I had SWORN that I would wait until Saturday, I took a test anyway.  And it was positive.  I was in such disbelief that I took 3 more.  Yes, 3 more.  All positive. 

I waited until the following Monday to call the doctor and then had to wait a week for an appointment, so I first went in on Monday, October 11th.  My doctor was at the hospital doing a c-section so I saw another doctor in the practice.  I was glad to hear he wanted an early ultrasound and bloodwork done, given we had lost our last baby so early in the pregnancy.  However, the ultrasound showed a 5 week gestational sac (which was right on schedule), a yolk sac, but no baby.  Not too much to be worried about because you usually cannot see the baby until week 6.  But what they did see was a separation between the gestational sac and my uterus.  I would have to come back in a week to see if it's healed.  I was put on pelvic rest and told not to worry.

NOT TO WORRY.  Yes, you read that correctly.

And if you know me, you know that this is practically impossible.  I worried ALL WEEK LONG.  I tried Googling sac separation and read about blighted ovum, just enough to totally freak me out.  My symptoms have been as follows:  excessive fatigue, heightened sense of smell, and breast tenderness.  I really didn't have any symptoms with Samantha so I was hoping these were all good signs but I wouldn't know anything more until the next Monday.  And it was the longest week on record!  But we prayed and we shared with family and close friends so that they could pray with us, and on Monday, October 18th Owen and I went into the doctor together because no matter the outcome, I wanted him to be with me.

All I can say is that the power of prayer is a wonderful thing.  The ultrasound on Monday revealed our lil' peanut, growing right on schedule, with a good heartbeat.  It was the most beautiful thing ever!  I believe I probably lost about 50lb of worry from my chest at that very moment.  The separation is still there but it is only about 1cm now and they will continue to keep an eye on it.  My doctor feels pretty confident that it will heal as the baby grows.  I go back on November 2nd and he said as long as my uterus is growing on schedule and I'm not having any other signs of trouble (aka bleeding) that he will not repeat the ultrasound for awhile.

We're still keeping it to close friends and family for now.  I guess I'm battle scarred and too worried to tell many others until I'm further along.

But, in the meantime, we will start counting down to June 11, 2011, when lil' peanut will arrive!  I stole this from my friend's blog and thought I'd start filling out my own version :)

Pregnancy Highlights:
How Far Along: 6 weeks
Size of baby: 0.25 inches
Total Weight Gain/Loss:  So far it looks like no gain, no loss
Maternity Clothes: Does the belly band count?  It's true when they say the uterus doesn't forget.
Gender:  We'll find out in January!
Movement:  Just gas ;)
Sleep:  YES!  Can I please have more??? 
Symptoms: UGH, everything I did not have with Samantha-breast tenderness, excessive fatigue, hypersensitive sense of smell, and nausea after eating
What I miss: Eating cupcakes because apparently lil' peanut does NOT like them like I do
Cravings: Anything that won't make me nauseous, which is apparently not a lot...
Best Moment this week: Seeing lil' peanut on the ultrasound and seeing the heartbeat
What I am looking forward to:  Meet him/her in June
Dr. Updates:  None right now
Prayer Requests:  Continue to pray that the separation will close and completely heal
Praises:  I just need to praise Him and thank Him for this second chance he has blessed us with, and for the baby being ok so far.